Valentines?

These are the only men I need in my life right now and they are making perfected valentines dates and cuddles.
Even though I'm super bitter about being alone this valentines day I appreciate the holiday.
Everyone gets sooooo busy in life that sometimes your love takes a seat on the back burner. Valentines day is just a reminder to tell you loved ones that you care. I love you all and hope you enjoy your love day <3

Walkin in a Winter Wonderland

HELLLLOO!!!!!!!!!
Merry Christmas to all!
Let me just update you on a few things.
New job, new bod, new life.
I've been so crazy busy that blogging seems to have not been a priority. (I know... what was I thinking)
I started a new job (not so new anymore) working in scheduling at Jordan Valley instead of the ER
I'm also still working at Red Lobster... WHICH I LOVE! The people I work with there are amazing!
I'm only 10 pounds away from reaching my goal weight...

I've got two new roommates, who take care of business, clean up after themselves, contribute to the house, and keep me company.
My sweet handsome boy, and munchkin man are still staying at my parents house and loving life. (Thanks mom and dad for taking care of them, and refusing to let me take them home ;) )
I'm dating, but nothing serious... and feel as if that's really all you need to know about that subject
So basically I'm getting a lot better. I still have my days, and when I do they aren't pleasent in the slightest but for the most part things are definitely on the up for me.

I just wanted to also let you know how much I loveeee christmas :) And we're like 5 days and counting here.
I also get to see my amazing brother in less than 24 hours (keep in mind he's my bestest fren in the whole wide world and I haven't seen him in 4 months.)
On the topic of STALLON, I'm going to take this moment to gloat!!!!!!!!
He had an outstand game this last saturday against ASU, had a career high of 24 points, had 9 assists, and 5 rebounds. He was 7-12 and 6-8 from the arc. He was voted big sky player of the week, and mid major national player of the week. He was also nominated for the Bob Cousy award.
Not many people understand the relationship I have with my brother... and that's okay, you don't have to, what you do have to know or understand is that I'm so very proud of him. He is such an amazing character. So full of life and compassion. I look up to him every single day and strive to be as strong, determined, hard working, and loving as he is. Bubba... you're my hero.

Well folks I know this blog was a little boring but... Next time :)
Hope everyone has a fantastic holiday, you're all with your loved ones, and that you remember I'm keeping you all in my thoughts.

Help me by crossing your fingers for a white Christmas.

Life as I know it

What has happened to me?

The last 6ish months have by far been the hardest of my life. I wont cherry this up for you. Every morning I've woken up trying to be positive, repeating to myself, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, YOU ARE BLESSED, YOU ARE AMAZING, YOU WILL HAVE A GREAT DAY. While I only believed like .1% of what I was saying, I still tried to reassure myself that I was going to be okay.

Lets be real... Divorce (regardless of the reasons) is not easy, is not fun, and is emotionally and physically draining. To love someone so much, and realize that that person is not who you thought they were/are is so hard. To marry somoene cause you want to spend the rest of your life with them, and then realize that you were wrong, is even harder. To have to adjust to a life without the person you loved the most, and knew you the most is the hardest. While it is no ones business as to why I did the divorce... you should know I did it for good reasons.

Doing this divorce was so hard on me.
I own my house... and I owned it with my ex. I got to keep it in the divorce but now I had to adjust to making mortgage by myself.... not easy when you only have two part time jobs, and you're attending a school that is 500 a credit hour (I still don't understand why becoming a chef is so bloody expensive.) I applied for well over 400 full time jobs, had interview after interview, and still just couldn't manage to find a full time job. I was also promised supervisor positions, and full time slots at one of my jobs, but instead was jipped hours.

Basically my life consisted of waking up, working one job, running to the next, come home, go to bed, wake up and repeat the previous days activities. I was forced to quit school because as you can imagine with a server job... I wasn't making very much money....

I just felt like everything I tried to do to make my situation better just ended up pulling me further into the hole I was standing in. Soon the hole turned to a grave and try as I might to climb out... I kept just pulling dirt on top of me, burrying myself slowly.

I gained weight, (for those of you who know me... this is a HUGE deal to me.) I shut my friends and family out, I drank alone, I had very dark thoughts, I was definitely the stareotype for depression. I hated my situation and began to hate myself....

Wellllllll needless to say the last couple weeks have been life changing.
I get to breathe again

To be continued.

My Likes:

~The Rain
~Orange. Not the fruit, the color.
~Lilac smell. Imitation smells can do the trick, but nothing beats the real deal. Yum
~Fishing. YES, you heard that right, AND perferably Ice Fishing. (I don't care how cold it gets)
~Dancing. I am a dancing fool. I'm not afraid to admit it.
~Movies
~Fresh cut watermelon, seedless please
~Babies, the way they look, the way they smell... everything
~Bubble Gum. The kind you can blow HUGE bubbles with... I also like Cinnimon Gum... it's okay, call me 50
~Ms. Monroe, what a BEAUTIFUL, AMAZING, INSPIRING woman
~Barns and Nobel... Best place on earth (F! those new fancy nooks and kindles, I love real books, the ones I can hold in my hands, and smell that fresh new book smell. Love adding books to my collection. C'mon ppl we dont' NEED technology FOR EVERYTHING)
~Skunk smellDon't judge me
~Tattoo's, I have a few... ask AND I'll tell :)
~ZOMBIES I love them and that's all you need to know
~SPeaking of books.... Reading
~Disney movies, they make me more happy then bubble gum
~FLAMINGOS (favorite animal right here. I've even got a flamingo tattoo)
~Starbucks
~Traveling. Airplanes are the greatest
~Seattle :) Pikes Market, Space Needle, Fresh Fish, The Ocean, Alki Beach, with Spuds Fish and Chips, Capital Hill, Even those silly homeless. One of the greatest places on earth.
~Dexter, Spartacus, Teen Mom, Jerseylicious, True Blood, Glee There might be more, but I can't remember, basically I love On Demand
~Laughing till I cry
~Crying till I laugh
~Game night with my family... Best nights in the whole world
~Bottle Caps, Gummi worms, Jelly Bellys leave me alone, I love my candy
~The first snow storm of the season
~Christmas Not JUST December 24th and 25th... Basically from November 1st to January 1st. If you know me, if you know my family... we could GIVE A SHIT about presents... it's all about santa, Christmas trees, being out and about, Christmas movies, Decorations, Spending time with your family
~Cuddling, best invention ever
~Elvis... he's a stud
~Playdough ice cream
~Movie theater POPCORN guiltiest pleasure right ther
~Dreaming! I can be someone different, have a different life, go on CRAZY adventures, meet new ppl
~Road Trips. My parents are best road trip buddies. Goodie Central
~Throwing Parites. I'm a great host
~80's music
~Hiking, Camping, and anything reguarding the mountains
~Singing in the shower
~Singing in the car
~Singing in general
~Cooking... I kiss better than I cook, and I'm a damn good cook... :) hahaha oh I'm funny
~The Water!!!!! Jet skiing, swimming, boating, you name it.
~Playing my guitar
~Being with my family
~The Raiders, The Jazz, The Mairners, The Seahawks, University Of Utah, Norther Arizona University
~Animals I LOOOOVE the Zoo
~My dogs
~The state fair, the Circus, Disney on Ice... anything that is new and comes into town

That's it for now.... I think.... hahaha

My Dislikes:

~Papercuts :(
~Ripping my tights
~Judgemental people, I used to be big, I was/am judged all the time...
~Techo, I appreciate ALL music, but I'm sorrrrrry... I JUST DON'T GET IT
~Dance Dance Revolution... It could be because I suck
~94+ degree weather
~Cooked Spinich... Gag me please
~Waiting in line, I'm very impatient
~The color grey... boring
~Broken phones, okay just mine
~Team iphone
~Ditchers, If you don't wanna hang out just say so
~Miley Cyrus... I did however like Hannah Montana, and The Last Song, oh okay and that one song... The Climb
~The ending of Toy Story 3, I hate crying for 15 minutes
~Call center jobs
~Finding a Penny face down
~That swing sets aren't as simple as they used to be
~Nooks and Kindles... gross
~The phrase "Cool beans" It's an ugly saying... please don't say it
~Brushing my teeth (DON'T WORRRRRRY, I still do it)
~Making my bed, Okay... this one, I don't do as often
~Belts... I see how some ppl need them, and they look alright on men, but for me it just adds a bunch in front of my crotch area... and I just don't like it.
~Walmart bras, They look cute, and last a week
~Team Jacob.. yeah he's hot in the movies... but if you've read the books, you so have to be Team Edward C'MON
~ When someone tells me that 28 days/weeks later, and others like it are Zombie movies, lets just get this straight, ZOMBIES DIE then come back to life. Shows like 28 days later are just infected humans, they never die, it's like a human rabies. Man... lets just NOT get me started ;)
~Peeing in a cup, am I the only one that finds this awkward?
~Any Sports team not meantioned above
~Whenanyone trash talks my friends, or my family
~Fans that are rooting against Northern Arizona University
~The word FAT

That's it, saying things I dislike just puts me in a bad mood, cause it makes me think of things that anger me lol and that's just dumb now isn't it ;)

Chewy's Return!!!!

Okay, so let me first tell you a little background about my Chewy.

Once upon a time I had an AMAZING little dog named CLOE.

Cloe was my love, and my best friend. I had rescued her and gave her all my love.

One day, out of my own stupidity, I left my gate open, Cloe got out and got hit by a car and was killed.

I was one sad miserable wreck of a person.

Well to fill my void and loneliness I found my sweet little Chewy!

This is Chewy.

I got Chew Chew in March, and I instantly fell in love with him.

He cocks his head at me when I talk to him, he licks my face everytime I pick him up, he sleeps on my bed at my feet and follows me around everywhere.

Chewy is a great dog.

OKAY OKAY I'll get on with the story...

Well I decided to take a little trip to Vegas August 5-7th.

I had asked my brother to watch my dogs...(YES DOGS I have two Shih Tzus)

This is Butters :)

Well my cute little brother got a little scared being at my house cause apparently some "crack whore" knocked on my door really late and asked for a ride to Jordan Landing... I can see where he is coming from... I do live in Kearns haha

Well Stallon decided it'd be a good idea NOT to stay at my house and just check on my dogs daily. I get it bubba I get it

Well my ex roommate (lets call this person Lady X)came to get some of her stuff.

When she realized I had changed my locks, went through my gate and snuck into my house through a window.

In doing so... she didn't close the gate.

Chewy escaped and was gone :(

I was pretty much a wreck... It was a horrible feeling, and I felt like a horrible pet owner

I searched websites

I went to animal shelters

I hung up reward posters

He was gone

With him missing for two weeks, I gave up hope for seeing him again.

I had even written him a goodbye note on facebook.

Shan SaldivarMy dearest chewy. You've been missing for almost two weeks now and while I'm not going to stop looking for you, I've come to grips with the fact that I'll probably never see you again. Thank you for all the joy you brought to my life these last few months lord knows where I'd be without the smiles you've brought to my face. I miss and love you and hope you are being taken care of wherever you are. I'm sorry.


August 20 at 11:04pm via mobile

see... totally had come to the reality that I'd probably NEVER see him again.

This is where it gets good READY???????

Well on Tuesday Aug 23rd I was working at Red Lobster and when my shift was over got a text from my mom saying:

"Hey, when you are done with work, can you go over to the house and help dad."

I that was a little werid since my dad never asks me for help, so I called my mom.

"What does he need help with." says I

"I dunno, but he needs some help, and needs it soon, and I can't get there till 5, I told him you'd come help"

So since I'm a fantastic daughter... ;) (haha love you dad)

I of course went over to help my daddy out.

When I got there, I walked inside and My dad said "Wait one second."

He got up, moved the doggie gate and came running chewy!!!!!!!!!

I dropped to my knees and just started sobbing.

It was the best feeling in the ENTIRE WORLD
I guess my dad had decided to check petharbor.com (for those of you looking for lost pets) and there Chewy was.

He had only been on the website an hour.

The shelter said that they had picked him up that morning on 3500 s and about 3500 w.

He was RATTY, AND MANGLED, and a little off

But it felt so great to hold him in my arms and give him kisses all over his smelly face.

I'm telling you that I must have a guardian angel on my shoulder.

With everything that's been going on I've felt smothered by bad news, and bad luck, but having chewy found and healthy has made me feel like...

Maybe there is a little light in the darkness that surrounds my life lately.

So for those of you who are missing pets...

PLEASE don't give up hope, you NEVER know what will happen.

Welcome home my Chew Chew

Introduction... and all that Jazz

Well hello :)

My name is Shannon

Lets just get started.

I don't want to cut any corners or beat around the bush so I'm just going to lay all my cards out on the table.

I'm 23

Who am I? What is my purpose? What makes me unique?

Lets be honest, not everyone knows who they are completely. Who I was yesterday, or even 10 minutes ago, isn't WHO I AM RIGHT NOW.

People change every second

I recently had some major changes that took place in my life and I'm just barely getting back on my feet.

From those experiences I've learned, loved, lost, and I've grown

I've recently realized that I am so blessed to have such an amazing family.

Love you Mom, Dad, Stall

I also finally settled into the belief that I've found friends I'm going to be able to have my whole life

Love you Mollie, Nicki, Samantha, Jess, Andrew

I go to culinary school, and so happy that after Years of schooling, I've finally found my nitch, found what makes me truly happy.

I own my own house... please don't congrats me... It's a lot harder than I thought it would be

I want to move away, not for forever, but for awhile

Perferably: Seattle, California, or New York

I make about 10 mistakes a day, lol whether it be saying the wrong thing, doing the wrong thing, or picking up my pen to write cap side down.

I love to read.

I'm a movie whore... lets just have a conversation about it, you'll see.

What I can tell you about myself is that...

I love too hard, I feel too hard, I wear my heart on my sleeve

But what's wrong with that?

I am who I am and I'm not ashamed of it. :)

My life is one hell of a ride, hope you're strapped in tight.